Impossible is a typoRunning my pants off and loving myself along the way

I wasn’t going to write this post. Insert Fat Girl Rant

ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME? I gained 4 freaking pounds this week and you want me to admit that on a stupid blog on the stupid internet? Well, you might as well post pictures of my ass for all to see. Look, I fell down a flight of stairs and if that does not earn me some quailty time lying in bed with Hulu, then you need your head examined. AND if my ass hurting wasn’t enough of a cross to bear, my tummy hurts. It’s been hurting all week. And you know when you’re not feeling better, toast with butter and jelly is the only cure. Sue me if I ate four pieces of toast to day. You moron, MY BUTT HURTS.

Yeah, I gained 4lbs. I have been wimping out of work outs. I’ve been not eating well, certainly not tracking and my tummy hurts. And I’m frustrated. I’m so tired of gaining and losing the same 5 lbs. I’ve been stuck at this weight since March, and I’m so frustrated with it I don’t know what to do anymore. I was hopping this little challenge and twitter and the blog would make a difference, but apparently not. Or its too soon to tell.

The past week has been a bit odd. There’s the butt bruise issue cutting into running time. I’ve been having odd tummy troubles which hasn’t help and yeah, my crazy inner Fat Girl is thwarting me at every turn. This is not a post of resignation. I’m just plain frustrated.

Oh a lighter note… I joked on twitter that I was almost at 500 followers and VinnySlavin, JackSht, nomorebacon graciously instructed their followers to follow me and I’d eat 500 Fish Sticks. Boys, this one’s for you.

FatGirlsCanRun gets 500 followers. MMM Fish Sticks

Starting Weight: 193 pounds

Current Weight: 191

I WILL LISTEN TO MY BODY

ONE brag for the week: I haven’t smoked in two weeks

ONE thing to improve upon for next week: LISTEN TO MY BODY!

You know, I’ve been doing this weight loss thing for a while and I still get sucked into certain ways of thinking. Just because some “diet guru” or some written diet plan says y0u should eat a particular way to lose gobs of weight, doesn’t mean A) it’s true and B) it’s a good method for ME.

I bought the Clean Eating Diet Book last week. I love the ideas behind clean eating which is basically don’t eat processed food. Simple right? In the book there is a “Cooler Plan” that is supposed to lead to tons of weight loss so, like a starry eyed newbie, I hopped on the bandwagon and followed the plan, which is essentially eat lots of protein. Animal protein. Basically chicken and green veggies at every meal. Pretty freaking simple.

Simple, yes, but I’m ignoring one important detail – my body doesn’t like processing large amounts of animal protein. What the heck was I thinking??

In my food adventures I’ve gone from Atkins to vegan and everything in between. When I was vegan, I KNEW that my body needed a certain level of protein that was really hard to get from plant sources. When I did Atkins, I KNEW my body sort of shut down and freaked out over processing so much meat.

I KNOW my body feels great having yogurt every day and keeping meat to one serving or less a day.

I KNOW this and yet I still let inner Fat Girl get wooed by the promise of fast and easy weight loss.

Oh yeah, and I forgot another IMPORTANT point – I don’t like chicken so why the heck am I eating chicken three times a day?

So I follow the plan for six days and then spend 2 days in agony as my body decides to flip out and I deal with cramping, the inability to poo and all sorts of other TMI issues. So lesson learned, yet again, the hard way – Listen to my body.