Posted by Amy | Posted in Having It All, Mind Games | Posted on 07-10-2010
Tags: BodyBugg, Fat Girl, Tasty Treats
It was a dark and stormy night. Ok. It wasn’t actually dark or stormy. Or night. But Crazy Inner Fat Girl was lurking about as if it was a dark and stormy night. She creeps on up to the hidden cash of chocolate like a ninja, her prey in sight. Just one wee little chocolate. No one will know. Peeking around the corner, Fat Girl slips a tiny chocolate in her mouth and pockets another. Ok, three more. The lights are out, no one is watching. SUCCESS! The calories won’t count!
Thus goes the secret snacking that never gets recorded and why my weight has been stuck in the 190s.
You see, I am a big fat fibber when it comes to snacking. A piece of cheese while I’m waiting for dinner to cook never gets recorded. The five crackers that go with the piece of cheese is ignored. And the existence of the little pat of butter on the aforementioned crackers and cheese is blinked away.
I might record the frozen yogurt I ate, but not the dark chocolate chips that go on top. I will write down the slice of bread I ate with my soup, but not the slice of bread with butter I ate while the soup was heating up. I’ll say I had lamb chops for dinner but there is no evidence of the teaspoon of mint jelly I had. OK 2 teaspoons. And I think the world might stop revolving if I actually made note of the coffee and creamer I have on a daily basis.
So why do I fib? It’s not like I don’t have the calorie budget to record 60 calorie piece of chocolate. It could be simple laziness. If I have that piece of chocolate, then I have to go to my computer, log in, search for the correct food item, click some buttons blah blah blah. Almost doesn’t seem worth the effort to eat the damn piece of chocolate.
So I’m starting a new week of total honesty with what I’m eating. Everything will get recorded. Everything, including the coffee and creamer. I’m working my butt off in the gym, and the few extra minutes it will take to log in my food for the day really shouldn’t be such a production. It will be an interesting experiment and should be quite eye opening.